Michael Speaks

It was the moment when my physical vehicle, my body Deva, recognized that it had an endpoint, and that was a certainty.

Michael

April 18, 2018

Dear All,

I thought it would be a good time to hear from the dying one, the other person wandering through this grief stricken landscape. My words won’t be so eloquent or as emotionally honed as Candida’s, for these are where her strengths lie. However, I will present as best as I can.

I remember the moment of panic that Candida described. It was the moment when my physical vehicle, my body Deva, recognized that it had an endpoint, and that was a certainty. At that moment, I was retching violently, and unable to breathe. Those sensations, coupled with the primordial realization of finality, propelled me physically to a place I had never been before. It did galvanize me, however, to action on the physical plane. I was sure to have my DNR order entered into my chart, and also I understood that it was time for what may be final visits from loved ones.

Returning to my center, I felt a great sense of love and compassion for the body. This old friend, who had taken me through almost 68 years of life, was reaching its end. I wept long and hard for it that day. What then followed was the visualization that Candida described so well.

I am left with a new clarity, peace, and abiding love. For my body, for my life, those I love, and for Life itself. I feel ready for whatever comes next, and for whatever duration that entails. I am grateful for all these gifts, and for all those who have supported and witnessed. I am truly blessed. There is infinitely more to say, feel, and process, but all that can be done in Silence.

 

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Per me, nihil possum facere.

(Of myself, I can do nothing)

Author: candidasblog

I am a mind-body psychologist with almost 40 years of clinical experience in which I integrate various aspects of psychological and spiritual understanding to help others heal. My husband, Michael, is also a mind-body psychologist and we founded an integrative medicine center together in 1997 called Eastwind Healing Center. In August, 2016 my husband was diagnosed with a life-threatening illness called Amyloidosis. Four months before this, he became enlightened. This has changed almost every aspect of our lives and this blog is an attempt to understand and articulate how spirituality can inform and strengthen the journey through mortal illness. Michael died on April 25, 2018. In numerology this is the number 22 -- the number of the Master Teacher. May his teaching, and mine, enlighten your load.

3 thoughts on “Michael Speaks”

  1. Michael. You are such an amazing and special soul and I have enjoyed our connection e er since the mid 90’s when You helped my son Through a major life crises and sent him on his way. It is my joy that I have gotten to know you more personally as the years went by. I see you transcending the physical with one breath out and the next breath into transcendence. Your soul will come to us to live In Our hearts and hold a space of love we all need as our planet also transcends. Thank you a million times for being you for so many of us and this is not good bye only see you again soon.

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  2. Michael, your books, blog, Patreon postings, years of practice as a psychologist, your guidance in meditation, and your snarky smart-ass sense of humor have all been such a great blessing. If our greatest purpose is to awaken ourselves as well as encourage the awakening of others, you have certainly done this. I pray that for the rest of your journey, wherever it may lead, you may feel utterly drenched in grace.

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